wah 19 tahun ^^

Kembali mengingat bagaimana Tuhan memimpin anakNya dengan cara yang menakjubkan... Seorang yang tidak pernah sama sekali disinggung masalah teologi, seseorang yang justru malah membutuhkan teologi.
Gw mencoba berpikir apa gunanya gw dulu ada di pelatihan tofi ya? Bukankah semuanya berakhir "sia-sia"? Tidak perlu jawaban yang menghibur deh. Cukup realita aja. I got no medal while in other side I have spent almost half of my high school time there.
What did I get? After all the money the sponsors had given me what did I get? Were they disappointed? Of course they were, even my school won't say anything that will reveal I have been there (ya of course they will if you ask), well what I want to say is ya I am just nothing, even after all that I have done maybe I can say I am totally nothing for them... Even I did not receive what shd I get as a Smukiezz.

But am I screwing things up?
No, it does not matter again for me if they wont say anything about me in the school. I wont grieve if I am not noticed.
I am not running for that. What I know is I was put in the training camp truly to train my spirit I think. Sorry to say that I was not trained for olympiad, or specifically at least not for 2007 olympiad.
Am I prepared to be his fulltime servant? I do not know the answer until now. What I know is that after all the difficult circumstances, I am prepared so well to touch the "divine" world, well ya theological related thing. With the background as a "rational" person, I am ready to use that as one of my tool to understand God, but not going to be a rationalist of course.

Ok di usia kepala satu terakhir ini gw ingin mempersembahkan yang terbaik buat Tuhan dan ya jelas mengerjakan apa yang menjadi tanggung jawab gw yang udah diberikan. Tetep mencari kehendak Tuhan ...